FARK!

im really farking angry and pek chek.
when will i ever do sth right?
when will i ever stop making him tell me he is unhappy with me?

what the fuck is wrong with me?
i just feel like slapping myself really hard right now.

im really feel so farking angry with myself.
like why the hell cant i just do everything right and not make him angry?
why do i have so much faults that make him unhappy all the time!
why the heck am i so problematic??!

FUCK!
wat the hell am i suppose to do now?
i am completely clueless to what i shud do.
he wants me to tell him my things, i tell him.
but he feels that im inconsistent now!
he wants me to be direct and i am doing it now
but still!
i still have faults that he is unhappy about!
den some other time he will think im not appreciative of him.
what the fuck is wrong with me?!
when the heck can i stop making him feel all those not nice feelings!
im really sucha big time failure and sucker!
CCB!

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